laurafish919 (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} laurafish919) wrote,@ 2005-11-21 23:06:00 |
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Rancor and me in a meadow...holding hands...sipping Pumpkin Spice lattes...
I am so nervous and excited about things.
I can't even begin to describe how much happier i am now than i was for most of the last decade. It is frightening because I am fully aware that paralysis, death, disease, betrayal...could strike at any moment and destroy much of my elation, but maybe i'm also aware that I can handle things now much better than before so i don't know....
I have a ticket stub from A Christmas Carol that Jenny Seba and I went to see December 4th, 1998. I found it in a dictionary. Little did i know THAT night that six years later, my mom would almost die that night...I remember that night so clearly...because it rained very very hard and it was still probably some of the worst driving conditions I've ever encountered (although i think Jenny was driving.) it was a nice night though. I think my mom's thing last year effected me more than I realized at first. And this probably is an obvious thing, but as the one experiencing it, I was blind to the obvious after effects.
I'm so happy with the new set up of my apartment. I even have a newfound love for that uglyass Rancor because now he sits in a basket full of glittery christmas bulbs and he is holding a cinnamon stick. I should glue some plastic flowers to the frame of Nick's Pabst Blue Ribbon poster too. I will alter everything Nick loves to amuse me!
I think I would like a dollhouse.
Does anyone remember the "Are You Afraid of the Dark?" episode with the girl trapped in the dollhouse? that scared me. I'd like to watch it now to see if it still made me so anxious.
The only thing really bothering me at the moment is the horrendous screaming of nick's current character (Ada Wong) in Resident Evil 4.
well my broken laptop is bothering me as well, and my fat, and my stuffy nose, and the laundry i need to do, and my envy of people i should NOT envy (although the envy is great because it just signifies another flaw I can dedicate some time trying to erase)
okay enough of this...maybe tomorrow ill have an entry on how i was hit by a car and killed and I won't be so merry in that one.
A scene in this resident evil 4 shit just reminded me of when Nick and i had sex at Bodie, this ghost town in California. we were next to some half burned down cabin with people just around the corner. We also had sex in the mountains that vacation. I'm proud of those times...
oh and today, I bought another pair of black boots AND super cool snow boots. I also bought earrings that go against my normal taste and that is probably why i'm so excited about them.
And I didn't eat too badly today, so tomorrow I'll wake up feeling light.
And i have thursday and friday off this week!
Life will be very nice for the next few days as long as the gods don't punish me via murder for not being miserable enough. It is a perfect night to find out Nick cheated on me. or to be eaten by zombies.
oh and joe threw my brownies away because they sat out over night. This is too upsetting for me to even elaborate on.
I wish my walls were always cozy melon.
I am so nervous and excited about things.
I can't even begin to describe how much happier i am now than i was for most of the last decade. It is frightening because I am fully aware that paralysis, death, disease, betrayal...could strike at any moment and destroy much of my elation, but maybe i'm also aware that I can handle things now much better than before so i don't know....
I have a ticket stub from A Christmas Carol that Jenny Seba and I went to see December 4th, 1998. I found it in a dictionary. Little did i know THAT night that six years later, my mom would almost die that night...I remember that night so clearly...because it rained very very hard and it was still probably some of the worst driving conditions I've ever encountered (although i think Jenny was driving.) it was a nice night though. I think my mom's thing last year effected me more than I realized at first. And this probably is an obvious thing, but as the one experiencing it, I was blind to the obvious after effects.
I'm so happy with the new set up of my apartment. I even have a newfound love for that uglyass Rancor because now he sits in a basket full of glittery christmas bulbs and he is holding a cinnamon stick. I should glue some plastic flowers to the frame of Nick's Pabst Blue Ribbon poster too. I will alter everything Nick loves to amuse me!
I think I would like a dollhouse.
Does anyone remember the "Are You Afraid of the Dark?" episode with the girl trapped in the dollhouse? that scared me. I'd like to watch it now to see if it still made me so anxious.
The only thing really bothering me at the moment is the horrendous screaming of nick's current character (Ada Wong) in Resident Evil 4.
well my broken laptop is bothering me as well, and my fat, and my stuffy nose, and the laundry i need to do, and my envy of people i should NOT envy (although the envy is great because it just signifies another flaw I can dedicate some time trying to erase)
okay enough of this...maybe tomorrow ill have an entry on how i was hit by a car and killed and I won't be so merry in that one.
A scene in this resident evil 4 shit just reminded me of when Nick and i had sex at Bodie, this ghost town in California. we were next to some half burned down cabin with people just around the corner. We also had sex in the mountains that vacation. I'm proud of those times...
oh and today, I bought another pair of black boots AND super cool snow boots. I also bought earrings that go against my normal taste and that is probably why i'm so excited about them.
And I didn't eat too badly today, so tomorrow I'll wake up feeling light.
And i have thursday and friday off this week!
Life will be very nice for the next few days as long as the gods don't punish me via murder for not being miserable enough. It is a perfect night to find out Nick cheated on me. or to be eaten by zombies.
oh and joe threw my brownies away because they sat out over night. This is too upsetting for me to even elaborate on.
I wish my walls were always cozy melon.
